supamun's Diaryland Diary

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let me out

It pains me to write this, but I feel like I am having a torrid time in camp. On paper I am not ill-treated, yet I have to do a lot more desk duties in camp even though I've downgraded (mebbe because so) and the gate duties are so slack I could do them myself. In addition, the shift ic is not to my satisfaction as well. He volunteered to be the IC so that he could treat himself better than others unjustifiably, which I think is wrong, not because he treats himself better, but because he expressed, to put it weakly, disdain when the previous 3 shift ics did the same. I have no problem with people who do things differently from me, as long as it is consistent. But i detest hypocrites. And he knows I don't like him, so he persistently backstabs me. He knows his displeasure at me will be shrugged off nonchalantly, due to his perception of problems which are non-existent, and so has elected to do things the easy way out. And I seemed to recall him once saying he admired the other shift ic because he settled issues internally. This paints a lucid picture, in my opinion, about his foul nature. Others might disagree and think that I am in fact the monster. But by putting my thoughts on this blog in full scrutiny of the merciless mass media, I have shown that I have nothing to hide. I may be confrontational, yes, but I am incredibly blunt and honest.
HIs eyes bring forth the overflow of malice he desperately tries to hide behind hideous smiles. His gentle words are, at best, a bad attempt to mask his carnal and unrepentant nature from the world.
This is why I hope to post out as quickly as possible. IN summary, he is not the only person who is testing my pride and patience. Another guy, his good friend who was once neutral, has unknowingly descended into a sinful cycle of lies and stubborness. he likes to impose his views upon me. he once told me not to sleep on a bed he was going to sleep on later, and i complied to his rude request, however found him doing exactly that to me a week later.
By God's grace, I do not want to fight a useless battle. Let me out quickly.

1:03 a.m. - 2006-12-18

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