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8 to 5 posting and my rraumatic memories
ok man. it's damn early. i woke up at probably 4+, with bloodshot and painful eyes as usual, undoubtedly due to my airforce training. Anyway, steel wall has ended, and I have POPed today. All the sai kang, the sleepless nights spent on the muddy floor in a bunker, the sleepless nights in camp doing duty, the relentless marching under the sweltering heat of the sun for POP, everything is OVER! And the very good news is that PC game me an 8 to 5 job. What's more amazing is, this vocation is usually given to IPPT failures, as they are adjudged to be less able to defend the airbase in times of real emergency. The reason the airbase regimental policeman working hours are so erratic and difficult are because it is classified as a key installation, and must be protected at all costs. However, my new base, the sister camp of sembawang airbase, the Air Defence Ops Control, is not a key installation, and hence the good working hours. And what's more, my worries of getting lousy working partners proved to be unfounded. My 3 other working partners can be said to be the the best that I could ever hope for. Gary, my section mate, and Jierui are grade B soldiers and fellow IPPT Gold holders, while Ferris is my primary, secondary and JC friend. I cannot ask for more. God is very kind. For the second time in my life, i relied on his power totally, working hard, especially toward the end of the course, and entrusting this particular worry totally into his hands, and he not only blessed me with what I wanted, but even gave me more than I deserved. Good things happen becuse of hard work and opportunities. Great things happen because of hard work, opportunity and, most importantly, divine intervention. Wee Teck is coming to the expo service this sat. Woot.
Anyway, after the initial euphoria, I was at a loss at where to start. Because this 8 to 5 job is going to give my army life a semblence of normalcy. I can once again pursue, to a certain extent, dreams I had to put on hold because of my previous stay-in vocations, a necessary and common sacrifice for our land.
I feel very sad for most of my friends, who are either staying in sembawang airbase or posted out to tengah and changi airbase. They have treacherous working hours and squalid living conditions. It'll be very hellish. Even my bro, who is a regular, says he pities the RPs. Even on their off days, the have to wake up at 5+ the next day just to book in on time. And their off days don't come along often. It's once in 3 or 4 days. Meaning they might well burn many weekends. And with offs hard to come by in my base, and the wave of terrorist threats not likely to subside, it augurs badly for their future. I hope they will take this experience in their stride and be able to grow stronger mentally.
I think I have had several traumatic events in my life. Stuff which I keep replying in my mind even after many years. 3 of which are most horrifying to me. I have been, at times, able to temporarily forget them, casting them to the most inaccessible recesses in my cerebrum, but they can be triggered by unexpected factors, and in the past 24 hours, I relived 2 of the 3. I cannot help but feel scarred. I always thought time healed wounds completely, but apparently some scars will remain for life, although they might dull or shrink with time. Ask any of our venerable great grand parents what they think of the japanese, and to this day, their response will still be a facial expression contorted with hatred, disgust and anger. All we can do is to view these bad memories in a positive light, move on, and endeavor not to let them happen in the future.
Benjamin Moey, my 2IC this week, was very sad because 8 of the 14 section mates were leaving. He cried, lol. Still, he's a nice guy and he taught me much about friendship, and how to maintain them. I shall elaborate on the 4 Cs approach the next time I blog. Bye
6:04 a.m. - 2006-09-15
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