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my prayer

I started watching bleach like yesterday. Thanks to me subscribing to direct download, I can download the early episodes at an insane speed a bittorrent download would never reach, and I have watched till episode 22. After my POP next wednesday, I can probably get up to date till about episode 90+ during my block leave. Woot. I think Bleach is a good anime. Cliched stuff, the way the hollows appear is like so many other animes, eg gatekeepers. The way inoue speaks is like the other girl in tenjou tenge(cant remember her name). The way Chad's arm grows the armor is like another anime whose name I cannot recall. I once thought Jap animes were novel and creative. I realised after a while they were just following tried and tested successes. It's a good anime because it has a powerful storyline and a grey area between good and evil, important characteristics for shounen anime, however it lacks a distinct unique style that differentiates the best animes from the second tier ones, such as GTO, which rates as my best for its unorthodox drawing and deep character development.
Anyway thanks to IMF coming down in 2 weeks, I will be having a threat con charlie rehearsal next weekend and will not be able to book out. From Tuesday to Friday, I will be having my operation steel wall, which is basically filling up 200 bags of sand to build a bunker, not exactly a walk in the park, but much more bearable if we had a bookout to look forward to. We POP on Wednesday. After achieving my second IPPT gold, I no longer have any motivation for the course. It was the same in BMT. The course lost its meaning for me the moment IPPT ended. Having said that, I'll still do a decent job as I do not want to get screwed in this latter stage of the course and I want to be posted out so I cannot afford to let PC have a bad impression of me. Hai. The stuff I do to try and get a better vocation surprises me sometimes.
I'm worried about my future. Shat. Who isn't. But my goals in life have taken a back seat now that I'm in army. I often have no time nor the right circumstances to pursue them as army is both physically and mentally draining. I ordered 2 books from Amazon. It's damn ex la, coz of the shipping costs. They're on writing. My mum says I'm only watching anime whenever I'm at home, so this is what i'll delve into if I get a favorable vocation after POP.
I'm still guilty about spending $236 on the watch. I think i'll treat my family, cg and section mates on separate lunches with my ippt gold earnings.
I feel guilty not going to street evax today. I forgot that I didn't need to go to my granny's house today as she's on holiday, and I thought I'd have very little personal time, it being a long week in camp and all, and the evax venue being faraway at pasir ris.And also because I wouldn't be booking out and wouldn't be able to bring my contacts to church. I conveniently ignored the fact I could still sow in my own little way by sharing the gospel. hai.My commitment is in question.
Lord, this is the second last week of my course. The last week will be a breeze, where we prepare for our passing out parade. Meanwhile, please give me the patience not to condemn others for every little mistake. Please give me the compassion and sacrificial spirit so that I will put others before myself and help them readily in times of need. Please bless me with mental fortitude and strength to see myself through this very tough last week without breaking down, like I did last week. And also, bless me with health. May I not sustain any injuries, and may my leg wounds heal. Lastly, bless all my friends with success in their respective endeavors, so they may come to know and trust in your promises, powers and divine judgments. This is the final battle, my last burst of fire. Lemme go out with a bang.

8:14 p.m. - 2006-09-03

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